Tagged with miscarriage

“It made me feel weird.”

“It made me feel weird.”

My best friend read my This Is Part Of It post and told me it made her feel weird. Weird? Seriously. WTF? That was poetic and emotional and raw. Whatever. It didn’t settle well with me. Clearly. So, I pushed her and asked her why it made her feel weird.  She didn’t want to get into it, but … Continue reading

National Eating Disorder Awareness Week

National Eating Disorder Awareness Week

I believe I’ve mentioned ED to y’all before. ED is the controlling dickhead in my life. He judges me when I pick something less than healthy to eat. He mocks me when I start to feel good about myself. He dictates when and how much I should eat. He’s brutally mean to me and speaks … Continue reading

Progress, Not Perfection

Progress, Not Perfection

On Valentine’s Day my husband bought me the most beautiful roses and wrote me a love letter. It was the perfect gift. In his love letter he wrote about how proud of me he was for how I’ve handled our loss. How he recognizes the bond between mother and child is like none other. How … Continue reading

You Know How To Take It Off

You Know How To Take It Off

I went to the Doctor’s today and it was the first time in months I’ve stepped foot on a scale. Within the last two weeks or so I’ve started getting back on track with running and cleaner eating. Within the last week my eating has been clean again. True Story: I contemplated going back to … Continue reading

Snowjam 2014

Snowjam 2014

Good God, y’all. I live in Atlanta. WTF just happened to us? I was one of the fortunate and lucky. I typically have a 35 minute commute. I left my office at 12:30pm. I got home at about 3pm. That was a struggle. The roads were already icing and cars were already abandoned. I contemplated … Continue reading

I’m trying

I’m trying

I’m trying. God knows I’m trying. I’m trying to find the balance between sanity and insanity; something I most often struggle with. Either I weigh in compulsively or not at all. I haven’t stepped foot onto the scale since my Post Op appointment. Kevin says he is glad I’m not torturing myself, but I can’t … Continue reading

Looking Forward

Looking Forward

I had my post-operation visit last Thursday. The Pathology report came back to show that there were no genetic/parental issues and this was a true chromosomal fluke. We should be good to go in the future. Talk about a relief! The Doctor said to spend the next 6 or so weeks doing whatever makes me … Continue reading

Soothing the Soul

I had a much needed weekend of soul soothing and what I’d like to think of recovery and the road to redemption. After gorging myself on Friday morning with a pint of Ben and Jerry’s Half Baked I realized I couldn’t continue down that dangerous road. I made a promise to myself as I licked … Continue reading

Just Keep Breathing

I am not exactly sure where to start, or what to say. What I do know is that when I started SoMuchFattitude I said I would always be real and honest, no matter what. This will undoubtedly be the hardest thing I ever write, as this has been the hardest week of my life. They … Continue reading