Tagged with recovery

Bad Listener

Bad Listener

So, I’m a bad listener.  I don’t follow directions well. Especially when it involves me not getting my way. I’m having a difficult time balancing mental health with physical health. I NEED  to exercise for my sanity, but I need to rest my body for recovery. It’s such a slippery slope for me. Since it has … Continue reading

Recovery and Week 1

Recovery and Week 1

We survived week 1! With a surprising amount of ease, actually. Overall, mommy-hood has given me a sense of completion. I have never felt more alive and happy. Brooke is truly the best thing that has ever happened to me. She’s a super chill and easy going baby. She only really fusses when she’s wet … Continue reading

51 weeks and 1 day

51 weeks and 1 day

The truth of the matter is, it all still feels like yesterday. I remember the music that was playing when I checked into my appointment. I remember where we both sat in the waiting room. I still remember exactly what I was wearing the day the ultrasound tech couldn’t find the heartbeat. It’s been 51 … Continue reading

Secondary Infertility

Secondary Infertility

It’s been one hell of a year, hasn’t it? If you’ve stuck with me, I am grateful beyond words. If you read all of this, I am grateful beyond words. I had a mini melt down with my Stend (I’m Befri and she’s Stend – a combination of best friend) yesterday and told her part … Continue reading

What is healthy?

What is healthy?

I’ve read that some 95% of people regain their lost weight and many gain even more than what they originally lost. Weight loss has two sides: mental and physical. Most people *think* they have the mental aspect down, but when shit hits the fan there is no telling what happens. Weight loss is probably more … Continue reading

The Space Between Us

The Space Between Us

 I weighed 325lbs and never once thought I was unattractive. In fact, I thought I was hot. Smoking hot. Curvy, thick, and juicy. If you tried to tell me otherwise I would have laughed in your face.  My confidence attracted people. I had boyfriends and heart breaks. People either hated me or loved me, but either way I still always had … Continue reading

Bourbon and Barbells

Bourbon and Barbells

Bourbon and barbells. It has a ring, right? I’ve started doing weights without drinking, too! I know, I know. It’s terrible. No, not that I stopped drinking while doing weights, but that I’d become a cardio queen. Looking back, it really would have helped my cycling times in the Triathlons. I do at some point plan … Continue reading

My Mental Health Realization

My Mental Health Realization

I can’t tell you how many times I’ve deleted this and then retyped it. Mental Health is such a hard topic to write about. It’s taboo. It’s scary. It’s the unknown. It’s the societal norms that still aren’t quite accepting. You’ve been with me through it all. The good days, the bad days, the weight … Continue reading

5k Epiphany

5k Epiphany

Here it is: I am no longer an athlete…but I will be one again. It’s incredible how quickly you lose it when you don’t train all the damn time. Wow! My morning started out GREAT! I’d lost 3.2lbs and felt back on track – finally. A sense of accomplishment and confidence overwhelmed me. I didn’t … Continue reading

National Eating Disorder Awareness Week

National Eating Disorder Awareness Week

I believe I’ve mentioned ED to y’all before. ED is the controlling dickhead in my life. He judges me when I pick something less than healthy to eat. He mocks me when I start to feel good about myself. He dictates when and how much I should eat. He’s brutally mean to me and speaks … Continue reading