This time next week I’ll be in surgery. Tummothy’s great departure will have begun. And I am so in my head. The anxiety of the surgery has come and gone. The anxiety of recovery has come and gone. But now I’m in my head wondering, “Have I done enough?” Have I lost enough weight? It’s … Continue reading
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MY Fatkini
I was nervous, I won’t lie. For so long our society has taught women that big is not beautiful. Our society has told women that if you’re heavy you need to cover up, get surgery, lose weight, stop being you. Fat skin is not desired skin. It doesn’t matter how far you’ve come, how much … Continue reading
Love The Skin You’re In
Do you love the skin you’re in? It’s such a fine line to love the skin you’re in while trying to change the skin you’re in. I’m working hard on the positive self talk. It’s so easy to get down on yourself when you’re trying to lose weight and the scale isn’t cooperating. Hell, I’m … Continue reading
What The Scale Won’t Tell You
The scale won’t tell you that I went grocery shopping on Friday to set myself up for success. The scale won’t tell you that I came home from a long day of work on Friday and went for a run and was able to run up one of the hills that always leaves me panting … Continue reading
Pics Or It Didn’t Happen
If you’re a 90s kid, you know what I’m talking about with “pics or it didn’t happen.” Well, it did happen. 4 times in fact. AND, four days ago, I wrote a post about getting my training life together and how much better I feel when I do. Since then, I’ve ran 4 times. I … Continue reading
Dear Target, please get your shit together
The fatty girl clothes in our Target are banished to the far back corner. Sure, maybe the maternity clothes outnumber the big girls sizes, which I can only reason as to the fact that Target must think the demand for the 5 months of maternity clothes outweigh the demand for years, if not a lifetime … Continue reading
Accomplishments
I’m trying to remain optimistic as the bad luck continues to pour over us; however, this post is not about that. This post is about the little non-scale victories. The other day at work was a nightmare. Just a straight up nightmare. I was ecstatic to get to my car and GTFO. Well, y’all – … Continue reading
I’m trying
I’m trying. God knows I’m trying. I’m trying to find the balance between sanity and insanity; something I most often struggle with. Either I weigh in compulsively or not at all. I haven’t stepped foot onto the scale since my Post Op appointment. Kevin says he is glad I’m not torturing myself, but I can’t … Continue reading
It’s Bullshit
“If I can do it, you can do it, too!” I read this article a while ago and it got brought up again and I’ve just been stewing…. It’s just bullshit. I’m sorry. Not the woman, not her mission, not her intention. Just this phrase infuriates me. I hate, with every ounce of my being, when people say … Continue reading
It could have been 600lbs
Every once in a while I will sit down in front of the TV and gorge myself on documentaries. The other day I watched My 600lb Life on TLC. I watched the end of Donald’s story, Ashley’s story and Melissa’s story. Melissa’s story really touched something in me: a young married woman wanting children and a new … Continue reading
Damn girl, that's a lot of fattitude 