Do you love the skin you’re in? It’s such a fine line to love the skin you’re in while trying to change the skin you’re in. I’m working hard on the positive self talk. It’s so easy to get down on yourself when you’re trying to lose weight and the scale isn’t cooperating. Hell, I’m even bad about shit talking myself when the scale IS cooperating! So, I’m trying to only speak to myself the way I want other people to speak to me. I’d never let anyone else call me fat, lazy, etc. Wow! This is harder said than done! I’ve realized how poorly I do talk to myself. Kevin says if he could change one thing about me it’d be how hard I am on myself. So, I’m trying my best to have no more of that.
Anyhow, we are going to the beach in 16 days.
SIXTEEN DAYS. PRAISE THE LORD!
I won’t lie. My weight has certainly flitted across my mind regarding the beach. I thought about what I weighed last Summer when we went to the beach, my honeymoon weight at the beach, what I weighed in Mexico, etc. etc. Instead of it bringing me down, I’m letting it serve as motivation. I asked Kevin if he was running today, because he’s started running again and I ran this morning. (YAY on all counts!)
HA! Kevin made the sad face, and I knew it was because he hates when I’m so hard on myself. I caught where that self talk was going to turn negative and then realized I’m done with that. Also, the biggest I’ve been in a very long time means I weigh 13lbs more than I did last year we went the to beach…and I’m still over 2 weeks away. I might only be 5 pounds heavier when we go, and guess what, when you’re a lifetime member at Weight Watchers you have a 5lb wiggle room. So, technically, in the spirit of “Loving the Skin You’re In” – I might weigh the same as last year. Boom. Mind blown.
I’ve also set my alarm with positive self talk. What’s better than waking up and the first thing you see is something to make you feel good about yourself?