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Life

If you had told me I wouldn’t write for over two years when I published my last post I would have called you a liar. I love writing. It’s my therapy. It’s cathartic for me, yet here I am – not having written for over two years. This feels good. Effortless. Lily Ann was born … Continue reading

Good Things

Good Things

Things have been going WAY better than I honestly could have expected. I’ve been on the Zoloft for a little over 2 weeks now and have felt a marked difference. It’s incredible. You really have no idea how poorly you were feeling until you feel good. Things I’ve been able to enjoy now: Bath time. … Continue reading

Postpartum Anxiety

Postpartum Anxiety

It’s really hard to talk about. It’s really hard to accept. But…I am. Just typing “postpartum anxiety” is giving me anxiety. Will people think I’m crazy? Will they think I want to hurt my daughter? Do they think I’m an awful mom? No, you’re being stupid. Relax. But…what if? I just chalked it up having … Continue reading

P90x3 Update

P90x3 Update

  It’s weird to workout with the soul purpose to lose weight. Like, really weird. Especially when that was your thing for so long. I’ve learned quite a few things in the last 30’ish days: We are doing more like a P120X3. Working out 6 days a week isn’t all that realistic for us, but … Continue reading

Happy Half Birthday!

Happy Half Birthday!

Oh sweet girl, we snapped this of you before you went to school today. How are you 6 months old today? I feel like I held you for the first time just yesterday. The last few nights have been long, bouncing from room to room and bassinet to crib to arms to both of us … Continue reading

Publish

Publish

Hitting publish is my therapy. I’ve tried screaming into a pillow. I’ve tried talking to my husband. Tried talking to my best friend. I’ve tried crying. But for some odd reason nothing works like hitting publish for me. This will be scattered. This probably won’t make a lot of sense. But it will let me … Continue reading

Changes

Changes

I keep starting an entry and then stopping. I keep typing and then deleting. Let’s face it – it’s hard to write in a healthy living blog when your current idea of exercise is getting up to go to the fridge. I bought up in sizes. Something I vowed to never do again. A promise … Continue reading

Epitome of Perfection

Epitome of Perfection

It’s not all bad. I promise. I could fill page after page with all of the amazing little things Brooke does that just melt my heart, but they’re all things you truly don’t understand until they are your own flesh and blood. The first time she rolled over you would have thought it was the … Continue reading

The Return of Spin

I did it. I reactivated, got myself to spin, and Brooke to their Kid’s ‘s Club. It was a remarkably awful experience. For your user experience I will break this into two parts: daycare and spin. Part 1: Daycare. So, I get there and Brooke is out cold. Great. I’ll throw her in the Kid’s … Continue reading

Far From Dark

Far From Dark

Brooke is 100 days old today. Someone told me I was about to be out of the “100 days of darkness” period. I had no idea what they meant so I looked it up. Apparently, this is a thing. The 100 days of darkness are characterized with terror, being overrun with hormones, sleep deprivation, relationship … Continue reading