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Stuck in the Suck

Stuck in the Suck

I feel like I’m stuck in the suck. Two steps forward, one step back. I wrote about the importance of the separation of food and fitness back in January of 2014. TWO years ago. Two years ago. Guyz – I’ve been battling this demon for way longer than two years, but I publicly acknowledged it two … Continue reading

Unfinished Chapters

Unfinished Chapters

I remember hitting 200.2lbs on the scale and the fear being immobilizing. I couldn’t remember ever seeing a 1 in front. For months this paralyzed me. I would teeter right at 200lbs, never once seeing that elusive 1. 200.2, 202, 201.6, always close but never quite there. I was so frustrated. So angry. So desperately … Continue reading

Finishing 2012

Finishing 2012

This is so incredibly true for me. I started SMF with a plan in 2012. I promised to finish it in 2013, but got pregnant and had my first miscarriage. I should have  gotten back on the wagon in 2014 – had a second miscarriage. In 2015 I set a bunch of healthy goals, HAD … Continue reading

Fat Bias

Fat Bias

I had my 20 week OB appt and Lil Baby Fat looks great! Growing like a weed and super active. We started out Bradley Method Birthing Classes and we are more than committed than ever to a natural, unmedicated childbirth. When we left our class we had a million questions to ask our Mid Wife … Continue reading

The Calm Before the Storm

The Calm Before the Storm

It’s an addiction. I know I have an addictive personality. I know I have to be careful. I know I think in black and white terms. And yet I still think about it. Dieting. Weight loss. The control. The restriction. The beauty of it all. I miss my spreadsheets. I miss the scale going down. … Continue reading

When it’s not working…

When it’s not working…

I’ve been doing this yo-yo, non committed, blame it all on the hormones, screw the weekends approach to eating. It’s not working. It’s not working so well that I’ve lost and gained the same 10 pounds for 5 months now. It’s not working so well that every weekend becomes “I’ll start on Monday” over and … Continue reading

Health Screening BS

Health Screening BS

It’s the most wonderful time of the year. Our annual work health screening. /sarcasm I hate doing this shit. It just genuinely rubs me the wrong way.  I happily get an annual flu shot. I know the importance behind it and have no desire to get the flu. My issue is the whole “I’ve known … Continue reading

WW – Week 1Return

WW – Week 1Return

Guyz – I’ve felt GREAT back on Weight Watchers. I feel in control, I feel healthy, I feel motivated and driven. I feel much more like my old normal self.   So, here I am… in line to weigh in. Since I destroyed my scale a few months back I’m super nervous. I’ve had nothing all week … Continue reading

Physical Therapy

Physical Therapy

No running. All I heard was no running. No. No. No running.   PT: I don’t want you running until your back is healed. Me: What about on a treadmill? PT: No. Me: What about a speedy walk? PT: No. In fact, I don’t really even want you walking up big hills. Me: What about on grass? … Continue reading

What The Scale Won’t Tell You

What The Scale Won’t Tell You

The scale won’t tell you that I went grocery shopping on Friday to set myself up for success. The scale won’t tell you that I came home from a long day of work on Friday and went for a run and was able to run up one of the hills that always leaves me panting … Continue reading