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Forgiveness

I follow the boards at 3 Fat Chicks on a Diet, which I fondly refer to as the “fatty forum” and I’ve realized a lot just reading other people’s thoughts and journeys. Quite frankly, it makes me sad. Sad for them. Sad for me. Sad for all of us struggling. People have an unrealistic expectation … Continue reading →

A Myriad of Emotions

Well, tri #2 is done and it was amazing. I learned some valuable lessons, though. Fatties get WAY too serious when racing. It’s uncomfortable. At least I feel uncomfortable. Oh boo hoo, I said “fatties.” I am a fellow fatty, I can use that term. Now, here’s my problem. The thinner people that compete can … Continue reading →

Thinspiration Camp: Where Calories Go To Die

It’s been a hot minute since I’ve been here…. The last time I was here I weighed 216, I got down to 210 and then went through some shit and now I’m back at 226. I’ve started Synthroid and I tried out for a work related “The Biggest Loser” program called Slimpossible. I was not … Continue reading →

Whiskey and Cheddar Bay Biscuits

I’ve had an interestingly terrible day. This morning I decided to try out the spin bikes all by myself since there wasn’t a class going on. When I got on the bike I couldnt help but see the bike yellow sign on it that said MAXIMUM WEIGHT: 300lbs. My heart skipped a beat and I … Continue reading →

An Emo Kind of Illness

I didn’t dare go to the gym since I can’t stop coughing today and I fear I may actually die. This is where my problem comes in though. I feel like a “quitter” when I don’t go and I hate that feeling. I usually end up forcing myself to go, get sicker and then stop going … Continue reading →

Boob Jobs and Blueberries

Weigh in day! 216….for a lovely -2lbs this week! I am quite pleased with it. This brings my total loss to -109lbs. My goal is to see 199 by my triathlon (May 19th, 2012) and then 175 by early September (Labor Day) and 150 by my Christmas. I found a picture of myself sprawled out on … Continue reading →

Whose Idea Was This?

Did I piss people off yesterday? You can leave nasty comments too. 🙂 I don’t know about you, but I really enjoy silence after an excruciating work out. It gives me time to process and take it all in. To be proud of myself, to reconnect. All of that hokey bullshit. I had just completed … Continue reading →