Hardwired Crazy

I met with the counselor and he is such a gem. He basically said my kinda crazy is hard wiring and not issue related. He suggested I see a MD and get on something. My PCP gave me Wellbutrin SR 8 months ago for my crazy, but I talked myself out of taking it. I … Continue reading →

Real Talk

“You become what you think about all day long.” – Ralph Waldo Emerson My bestfriend was kind enough to send me that image tagged with “Danielle’s Weight Loss Diaries” She couldn’t be more right. I haven’t kept it to one room so it doesn’t look that terrible; however, I very well may have as many … Continue reading →

Reality Check

Long story short: I used to be crazy. I thought I’d battled all of my demons and conquered them. I thought I was fine. I thought this was all over. So,  I’m not exactly sure where to start this or how to start it, so bare with me. Can fat people have eating disorders? It … Continue reading →

You’re freaking me out!

REWIND: so, I had been stressing about this BBC Ride because initially my husband (Kevin) had talked me into doing the 33 miler – without me having ever ridden 33 miles. We went out to a pretty flat course and did 32 miles a few weeks ago. Unfortunately, I was hung over and it wasn’t … Continue reading →

Eat to Win…err…Eat to Lose?

I’ve been informed I don’t eat enough, which is why I’m always struggling with my weight loss. I’ve been eating 1300-1500 calories a day, but I work out 5-6 times a week and burn around 1000 calories each time. I ultimately end up netting 300-500 calories a day, which means by body is in starvation … Continue reading →

Ups and Downs

I gained 3lbs this week… I can look at this two ways: be really upset or move on. I’ll move on. I used to get really upset, but I can’t do that anymore. It’s too taxing and draining to do. I worked out and I ate healthily….(just not enough.) I’m not quite sure why or … Continue reading →

Elusive Unicorns

I took three weeks off from Jiggle It and oh dear god, my thighs have absolutely no interest in participating in anything today. In fact, they are so bad that I am trying to time my day to doing a bunch of things at once. Example: I will heat my lunch, go pee and refill … Continue reading →

TC Weigh In, Jiggle It & Rewind

Starting Thinspiration Camp Weight: 232 Week 3 Weight : 219 Damn, that feels good. This week had its ups and downs, including margaritas and queso, but I counted all my calories and cut back on other meals to compensate. Though, I definitely didn’t exercise as much. I biked Monday, and we saw the results of … Continue reading →

You will fall.

If you worried about falling off the bike, you’d never get on. ~ Lance Armstrong True story, because you will fall. At some point, while being clipped in, you will fall. It sucks. You tell yourself it won’t happen to you. You may just run into a bush the first time because you forget where … Continue reading →

A Myriad of Emotions

Well, tri #2 is done and it was amazing. I learned some valuable lessons, though. Fatties get WAY too serious when racing. It’s uncomfortable. At least I feel uncomfortable. Oh boo hoo, I said “fatties.” I am a fellow fatty, I can use that term. Now, here’s my problem. The thinner people that compete can … Continue reading →