You will fall.


If you worried about falling off the bike, you’d never get on. ~ Lance Armstrong

True story, because you will fall. At some point, while being clipped in, you will fall. It sucks. You tell yourself it won’t happen to you. You may just run into a bush the first time because you forget where your new breaks are and your husband is screaming “BREAK BREAK” as you’re quickly approaching said shrubbery and ride straight into it. (Don’t judge me.) But, you will fall for real. It’s what happens after your fall that counts.

In attempt to try and learn my bike and push myself, I tried getting out of the saddle, in a gear too big for the hill I was on to “jog through” it, while clipped in. Negative. That 100% did not happen. What did happen is I got out of the saddle and onto the ground, while clipped in still. Oh god, mortified.

So, Kevin was at the top of the hill (waiting on my slow ass) and there is this walker that looks at me, looks at him, watches me fall, looks at him and then runs to me. She asks me if I need help. Of course, I tell her, “NO. I’m fine. I’m good. Keep walking.” (Who says that? Keep walking. Well, she’s staring at the blood dripping down my shin and I repeat myself, she looks back to see Kevin riding down to me and then keeps walking. I’m sitting on my big ass, still awkwardly clipped in my bike, crying (that shit hurt – I fell into a curb with rocks, not grass next to it, but rocks.) Kevin arrives and then a cop pulls up and asks if I’m ok. WTF? Kevin tells him I fell, but I’m fine, and he laughs. Seriously? Rude.

Anyhow, Kevin says he’ll get the car and pick me up, but I refuse and finish the course. Bloody leg and all. It hurt. It stung. It was embarrassing, but honestly, a year ago…I would have begged him to pick me up. It felt damn good to say no and finish it. Sometimes I forget how different I am now and even though the scale may not always reflect my hard work, something “upstairs” has changed. It’s a welcomed change.

I want to ride my bicycle

I want to ride my bike

I want to ride my bicycle

I want to ride it where I like

~ Queen Bicycle Race, Fat Bottomed Girls

Queen Bicycle Race Quote

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