It’s really hard to talk about. It’s really hard to accept. But…I am. Just typing “postpartum anxiety” is giving me anxiety. Will people think I’m crazy? Will they think I want to hurt my daughter? Do they think I’m an awful mom? No, you’re being stupid. Relax. But…what if? I just chalked it up having … Continue reading
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The Calm Before the Storm
It’s an addiction. I know I have an addictive personality. I know I have to be careful. I know I think in black and white terms. And yet I still think about it. Dieting. Weight loss. The control. The restriction. The beauty of it all. I miss my spreadsheets. I miss the scale going down. … Continue reading
Come on, you won’t kill me. Just stab me and let’s get this over with.
I had an ultrasound done last week that showed I had two huge follicles (24.8mm and 24.5mm ) on my Left ovary and none on my right. I got the whole, “WOWZAS! These are big and both might drop, which means twins are a possibility” talk. We’re fine with that. The Doctor was very happy … Continue reading
WTF are you doing?
A few people have asked me wtf I’m doing recently pertaining to my “diet.” With multiple people asking me, I stopped to actually think about it. You can overlook one or two people asking, but multiple people makes me stop and think…What the fuck am I doing? I’ve gone back to the “dieting” mentality due … Continue reading
I was nervous, I won’t lie. For so long our society has taught women that big is not beautiful. Our society has told women that if you’re heavy you need to cover up, get surgery, lose weight, stop being you. Fat skin is not desired skin. It doesn’t matter how far you’ve come, how much … Continue reading
Recipe: Zoodles – AKA Low Carb Pasta Substitute
It’s been forever since I’ve done a recipe, right? I often talk about Zoodles on my twitter, as they’re my favies. So – here goes! Zoodle Maker is neccessary and the best cheap kitchen gadget money I’ve spent in a hot minute. Zoodles replace my pasta! I will say, please – for the love of God – … Continue reading
Replacing one eating disorder with another
Y’all am I the only one in a bad place about the Biggest Loser Finale last night? That poor Rachel Fredrickson. I think Bob and Jillian’s face summed it up perfectly when they saw her for the first time: That’s a stank face and a half there. Shock, horror, disgust. Jillian even mouths, “Oh My … Continue reading
A Separation of Fitness and Food
As I’m reading Intuitive Eating, 3rd Edition cover to cover I’m falling more and more in love with it. Today has been successful with food. I found out my Grandma passed away in the night shortly before 8am. The first thing I wanted to do was eat, but I asked myself if I was hungry … Continue reading
Making Peace with Food
I’m still reading Intuitive Eating, 3rd Edition and the third principle is : 3. Make Peace with Food – Call a truce, stop the food fight! Give yourself unconditional permission to eat. If you tell yourself that you can’t or shouldn’t have a particular food, it can lead to intense feelings of deprivation that build … Continue reading
Have you ever stopped dieting?
I don’t know that I have. It’s been that mindset for a very very long time. Guys, I don’t really know what the hell I’m doing, but I do know one thing – I’m over “dieting.” So, in the words of Usher, these are my confessions… “Oh girl, it’s a lifestyle change. That’s your … Continue reading