I contemplated not going to Weight Watchers yesterday.I knew I’d weigh heavy from the weekend. I knew it’d disappoint me. I knew I’d be upset. And I did. And I was. I sat down next to my dad totally bummed and mad myself.
“All that hard work down the drain because you can’t keep your shit together on the weekend.” “So stupid.” “To hell with your goal – you’ll never see onderland at this point.” “The same effing pounds over and over and over again.” It all ran through my head.
The topic this week was what advice would you give someone brand new to Weight Watchers, just starting out?
We all wrote down our answers on a little piece of paper, folded it up and put it in a basket. Everyone redrew a piece of paper and anonymously read it aloud.
Someone started to read mine and she choked up. She got emotional. She had to stop reading and compose herself. I realized that there were a few other people that were getting emotional. The leader made a comment about the advice being “powerful.” The woman quietly whispered, “I needed that.”
I keep replaying this in my head over and over again.
My advice? “If I could do anything, I’d hug my 325lb self and tell her I’m sorry and I love her. Forgive yourself. Your journey won’t be black and white. Find your grey.”
This morning I woke up, still thinking about this. I went for my run and I still couldn’t shake it. As I was running it hit me – I was being a hypocrite. The truth is – I needed that, too.
So, I had this conversation in my head:
Did you have a good weekend? Yes
Did you really do that bad? No.
Is this mostly water weight? Yes.
Is some of it because you’ve started running and you know this happens the first two weeks you run? Yes
Did you gain 125lbs or 1.6? 1.6
Is the world really ending? no
Does the scale define you? no
MOVE ON, DANIELLE. LET IT GO. Forgive yourself. These things will happen. Your world has not ended. Got it? YES!
Forget Weight Watchers – What advice would you give someone that is JUST starting a new lifestyle?