Tagged with clomid

Invincible Summer

Invincible Summer

A couple of Kevin’s coworkers sent us the most beautiful flower arrangement that did wonders for my spirit. It made me feel hopeful and gave me purpose. As soon as I started feeling sad I’d look at these flowers and be reminded that even though things feel so ugly, there is still beauty in the … Continue reading

Grattitude

Grattitude

Thank you. A lot of people have said they’re encouraged, inspired, and thankful I’ve been so open with our infertility struggle, with our now second miscarriage, etc. And some people don’t get it. It’s such a personal, intimate thing someone goes through. I’m sharing the most inner details of my life. Our lives. I ask Kevin … Continue reading

When it’s not working…

When it’s not working…

I’ve been doing this yo-yo, non committed, blame it all on the hormones, screw the weekends approach to eating. It’s not working. It’s not working so well that I’ve lost and gained the same 10 pounds for 5 months now. It’s not working so well that every weekend becomes “I’ll start on Monday” over and … Continue reading

51 weeks and 1 day

51 weeks and 1 day

The truth of the matter is, it all still feels like yesterday. I remember the music that was playing when I checked into my appointment. I remember where we both sat in the waiting room. I still remember exactly what I was wearing the day the ultrasound tech couldn’t find the heartbeat. It’s been 51 … Continue reading

Where is my beer?

Where is my beer?

Kevin and I ran the Michelob Ultra 5k on Saturday. I absolutely loved the course. Tons of rolling hills, but for some odd reason I really enjoyed them. The course was pretty too, lots of farmland and that old country feel to it.  I certainly didn’t set a PR, but considering I haven’t actually trained … Continue reading

Insane Clomid Posse

Insane Clomid Posse

It was a very precise moment when I thought to myself, “Shit…maybe I’m crazy like the rest of them.” Then were several additional times that confirmed my initial thought, though not realized until the storm had passed. I feel like I’m a part of the Insane Clomid Posse. See what I did there? Situation 1: It … Continue reading

Week 2 Weigh In

Week 2 Weigh In

I set my expectations MUCH lower this week for multiple reasons, including the fact that this Clomid has left me RAVENOUS and bloated. Things the Clomid has also done: made me exhausted, given me tons of acne and cramping. On top of the acne, due to my ravenous state, I couldn’t wait three minutes for … Continue reading

Fertility Results

Fertility Results

“Here…do you want me to…” “No, I’ve got it.” “Are you sure? I can give you a hand-jibber.” “Yeah…just…let me do this. This is… weird.” “Alright…I’ll be downstairs…” ______ Shit, do I put a seat belt around it? What if I get pulled over? How do I explain that time is of the essence? Sorry, … Continue reading