It’s really hard to talk about. It’s really hard to accept. But…I am. Just typing “postpartum anxiety” is giving me anxiety. Will people think I’m crazy? Will they think I want to hurt my daughter? Do they think I’m an awful mom? No, you’re being stupid. Relax. But…what if? I just chalked it up having … Continue reading
Oh sweet girl, we snapped this of you before you went to school today. How are you 6 months old today? I feel like I held you for the first time just yesterday. The last few nights have been long, bouncing from room to room and bassinet to crib to arms to both of us … Continue reading
It’s not all bad. I promise. I could fill page after page with all of the amazing little things Brooke does that just melt my heart, but they’re all things you truly don’t understand until they are your own flesh and blood. The first time she rolled over you would have thought it was the … Continue reading
Brooke is 100 days old today. Someone told me I was about to be out of the “100 days of darkness” period. I had no idea what they meant so I looked it up. Apparently, this is a thing. The 100 days of darkness are characterized with terror, being overrun with hormones, sleep deprivation, relationship … Continue reading
Yep. It was just as awful as I thought. My only saving grace is that the ladies that work there are super sweet and Brooke doesn’t seem particularly upset when we get there. But… I have a few legit concerns about daycare. Let me start by saying that I once worked at a daycare. I feel … Continue reading
11 weeks. My sweet, sweet girl was 11 weeks yesterday. It’s hard to imagine a life before her, and nor do I want to. In her short existence she has taught me more about myself and life than my 32 years here has. My mom bought Brooke this sweet outfit and it could not be … Continue reading
It’s been a week. Boy, has it been a week. A friend of mine passed away last Sunday. She was only 30, recently married and has a 4 month old son. I feel like it could have just of easily been me. I’ve spent this past week reflecting and realizing that I care too much … Continue reading
I have to say it: I WAS RIGHT. Looks like my Western University of Google Medicine Medical Degree was spot on. Seriously though, if you think something is wrong and it’s in the pit of your stomach folks, chances are something IS wrong. Don’t push your mother’s intuition aside. You are your child’s biggest champion … Continue reading
About a week into my dairy free adventure I was repeatedly told I was being crazy and she doesn’t have dairy allergy, backed up by research saying the chances of her having a dairy allergy and being exclusively breastfed is about 2%. Agreed, probably not a dairy allergy but I just have this gut feeling … Continue reading
Yesterday was a day of firsts…and most of them sucked. First time pumping. My Lactation Consultant told me to wait until 4-6 weeks postpartum (PP) to pump; I pumped at 5 weeks and change. I hated every minute of it. Not only does it add like 78 steps to my morning, between cleaning and shit, … Continue reading
Damn girl, that's a lot of fattitude 