I honestly thought today would easy. Baby girl is going nuts and just kicking away as I type this. I’ve had a very healthy, uncomplicated pregnancy to date and I’m in the home stretch, but today is still not easy. The amazing life inside of me doesn’t mean my two previous pregnancies were any less … Continue reading
A couple of Kevin’s coworkers sent us the most beautiful flower arrangement that did wonders for my spirit. It made me feel hopeful and gave me purpose. As soon as I started feeling sad I’d look at these flowers and be reminded that even though things feel so ugly, there is still beauty in the … Continue reading
Thank you. A lot of people have said they’re encouraged, inspired, and thankful I’ve been so open with our infertility struggle, with our now second miscarriage, etc. And some people don’t get it. It’s such a personal, intimate thing someone goes through. I’m sharing the most inner details of my life. Our lives. I ask Kevin … Continue reading
I guess there is no easy way to say this. It happened again. We made it to 5 weeks this time. We found out at 3w3d, told our immediate family at 4 weeks and had a miscarriage at 5 weeks. I was going to tell the rest of our family on Christmas and tell y’all … Continue reading
I’ve been doing this yo-yo, non committed, blame it all on the hormones, screw the weekends approach to eating. It’s not working. It’s not working so well that I’ve lost and gained the same 10 pounds for 5 months now. It’s not working so well that every weekend becomes “I’ll start on Monday” over and … Continue reading
I had an ultrasound done last week that showed I had two huge follicles (24.8mm and 24.5mm ) on my Left ovary and none on my right. I got the whole, “WOWZAS! These are big and both might drop, which means twins are a possibility” talk. We’re fine with that. The Doctor was very happy … Continue reading
The truth of the matter is, it all still feels like yesterday. I remember the music that was playing when I checked into my appointment. I remember where we both sat in the waiting room. I still remember exactly what I was wearing the day the ultrasound tech couldn’t find the heartbeat. It’s been 51 … Continue reading
It was a very precise moment when I thought to myself, “Shit…maybe I’m crazy like the rest of them.” Then were several additional times that confirmed my initial thought, though not realized until the storm had passed. I feel like I’m a part of the Insane Clomid Posse. See what I did there? Situation 1: It … Continue reading
I set my expectations MUCH lower this week for multiple reasons, including the fact that this Clomid has left me RAVENOUS and bloated. Things the Clomid has also done: made me exhausted, given me tons of acne and cramping. On top of the acne, due to my ravenous state, I couldn’t wait three minutes for … Continue reading
Damn girl, that's a lot of fattitude 