Pregnancy Compliment Skeptic

Pregnancy Compliment Skeptic

  I’m struggling accepting that my body is no longer my own body. Like really struggling. Last night, as I was getting ready for bed I noticed a glistening white lightening bolt on my tummy. A stretch mark trying to make its appearance. The tears started streaming down my face as I climbed into bed. … Continue reading

5 Alarm Fire

5 Alarm Fire

My midwife paused, “Well, that’s a 5 Alarm Fire. You need a neuro consult immediately.” shit. Ok … let’s rewind… It happened once like three weeks ago. I’d just get this overwhelming sense of dizziness. The grab the table, you just stepped of a tilt a world, you’re going to fall feeling. My heart would … Continue reading

Fat Bias

Fat Bias

I had my 20 week OB appt and Lil Baby Fat looks great! Growing like a weed and super active. We started out Bradley Method Birthing Classes and we are more than committed than ever to a natural, unmedicated childbirth. When we left our class we had a million questions to ask our Mid Wife … Continue reading

The Calm Before the Storm

The Calm Before the Storm

It’s an addiction. I know I have an addictive personality. I know I have to be careful. I know I think in black and white terms. And yet I still think about it. Dieting. Weight loss. The control. The restriction. The beauty of it all. I miss my spreadsheets. I miss the scale going down. … Continue reading

Cakes, Cribs, and Crying

Cakes, Cribs, and Crying

I know I’ve been terrible about blogging. Like absolutely horrible. I think about it every day, but the truth is that there really isn’t anything to report. I haven’t hit the “I feel amazing – pregnancy rocks” stage yet. I still have morning sickness, feel like I’ve been hit by a mac track, and can’t … Continue reading

Surprise!

Surprise!

I guess the perk to “morning” sickness is that my toilets have never been so clean. As I found myself wrapped around my Porcelain God at 12:30am I recalled a conversation I had with my MidWife last week: Me: When will the dry-heaving, nausea and constant feeling of yaking stop? MidWife: It mostly stops…sometimes… for … Continue reading

Labor Training

Labor Training

I train. It’s what I do. It makes me feel good and like I have a purpose. I’m a goal oriented person that does well with a routine and enjoys knowing what comes next. I’m a planner. I like control. I own these qualities about myself. Yes, they make me a little neurotic, but I … Continue reading

Berry Official

Berry Official

The last 3 weeks have been like waking up every single morning with the worst hangover of your life – but with no wild night before. I’m fairly certain a Big Mac would cure all of my problems, but actually getting it down is another story. I settle on crackers and ginger ale.┬áMy body aches … Continue reading

Bless Your Heart

Bless Your Heart

I’m quiet because I’m still scared, honestly. I really, REALLY want to believe and know that everything is fine and this is a healthy, normal pregnancy, but it’s so hard. I’m 10 weeks tomorrow. My insanity has no logic. I have all the symptoms and ultrasounds and heartbeats to prove that this is healthy, but … Continue reading